So today was alright but ended really sweetly. :)
So, today was alright… but I completely chickened out.
uh guys… this is actually L’s horoscope (!!!!)
Sometimes I have to wonder why I had to fall in love with L. What the hell is this supposed to teach me? Not to fall in love with straight girls who are as old as your mother? Wow, could’ve figured that one out without actually having to experience it.
Is it really necessary to constantly have her on my mind? To fantasize about cuddling together, sleeping together, sharing a bed, a house, our libraries, a cup of coffee in the morning? Sharing a life together? To fantasize about fucking marrying her? Is that really necessary?
This is torture. Sometime I think that one of these days I am just going to crack and spill my heart out to her, tell her all of the feelings that I have for her. But then, I know that if I did that, it would never be remotely the same between us.
Oh, and I decided not to email her about coffee this weekend. I’ll ask her tomorrow, I think.
I wake up
at four in the morning
and taste smoke
in the back of my throat.
I swear to god,
you’re still burning
somewhere inside me.
Oh, believe me, I love it too. ;D
And I’m working on the coffee part… I’m going to e-mail her about it tonight, or ask her about it on Monday maybe. :) What about your coffee date?? :)
Day 14. What do you think your TC was like in high school?
Pretty much the same as she is now, I think. I know that she was in journalism, I know that she was a cheerleader (on the dance team), I know that she was in the “homecoming court.” I know that she was a “good girl,” and had a “good Catholic boyfriend” who was a swimmer and that she was probably a virgin until college. So yeah, a good girl, a peppy girl, and an English intellectual.
Happy Pi Day! Today started off kind of badly, but then actually got so much better.
So, overall an okay day I think?